some days I am overwhelmed by all that I should do - or all that I could do - or want to do -
the laundry
cleaning
exercising
being a wife
being a mom
crafts/decorating/having a cute house
doing my church calling
being a good friend
building our food storage and savings accounts
reading good books
properly documenting all the fun things we are doing
cooking
maintaining relationships
the list goes on and on doesn't it?
and really, most of the time, they are things I want to do, there usually just isn't enough time.
sometimes it is easy to get caught up in it all and it's easy to feel a bit defeated I guess. It's sad we can all feel that way, when we're all doing so much and doing our best.
I guess it's just beautiful fall days like these that remind me of what's really important, what matters and just really make me so grateful for my simple life. it really is simple and although sometimes I feel less significant than I used to think I wanted to be, I am reminded that I matter to this little squirt and what more could I really ask for?
a beautiful day and a beautiful boy.
also, mostly unrelated, last night was kind of the first night Asher slept in our bed with us. I went in to tuck him in and cover him with his blanket around 11, and for some reason it woke him up. He popped right up in his crib, sleepy eyed and looking so confused. His little voice said "mama?" (I had ran and hid behind his door as soon as he started waking up...haha, it was my first instinct.) I poked back in and scooped him up out of his crib. He snuggled in, and for some reason I took him to our bed. He just looked so sweet, so perfect and cuddly. Marcus was surprised but made room for him in our bed. We snuggled our little guy and commented on how sweet he looked. He quickly fell back to sleep, and I enjoyed laying there, holding him, thinking about how lucky I am to be his mom. And about 15 minutes later I carefully carried him back to his bed so I could enjoy a good night's sleep. :)
also, mostly unrelated, last night was kind of the first night Asher slept in our bed with us. I went in to tuck him in and cover him with his blanket around 11, and for some reason it woke him up. He popped right up in his crib, sleepy eyed and looking so confused. His little voice said "mama?" (I had ran and hid behind his door as soon as he started waking up...haha, it was my first instinct.) I poked back in and scooped him up out of his crib. He snuggled in, and for some reason I took him to our bed. He just looked so sweet, so perfect and cuddly. Marcus was surprised but made room for him in our bed. We snuggled our little guy and commented on how sweet he looked. He quickly fell back to sleep, and I enjoyed laying there, holding him, thinking about how lucky I am to be his mom. And about 15 minutes later I carefully carried him back to his bed so I could enjoy a good night's sleep. :)
5 comments:
Please cut and paste this to my blog. Your words perfectly describe how I feel...all the time. I remind myself daily to enjoy life's little but greatest moments. I perfectly relate to at one time thinking I would be this, doing that, but like you, I love my simple life being a mommy. :) We are beyond lucky to spend all of our time with our precious babies. I too, wouldn't trade it for anything.
Btw, from my standpoint you are amazing at everything you do & I have often thought how well you seem to balance it all. So keep on doing what you do b/c it inspires me. I love you Chels!
My goodness, Chel. How tender this post is! You're making me tear up over here. Life is so crazy busy and I feel ya on the whole not ever feeling like you're doing enough, but believe me, you do!! You're an amazing mama to that amazing little guy and I admire how much you seem to balance life. And honestly, can you just package that cute little nugget of a boy up and ship him to my house? He is too cute. I can't handle it sometimes. And his hair. It is perfect. Love you, Chel!!
I needed that post! Thanks buddy!
I feel the same way. This last baby of mine has me realizing that this stage of my life is going to be coming to an end so very soon. And although I'm looking forward to the next stage, with older kids and different adventures, I am trying so hard to soak up the littleness of her and enjoy the moment. The laundry, cooking, pinteresting, and everything else will always be there, and I will never get it all done. But I'm so thankful I can be everything for my babies. What a cute little guy you have-we just love him to pieces and only wish we lived closer and could soak his wonderful ness up every day!
Sweet pictures and I definitely can relate to your feelings. I just re-listened to Elder Cook's talk from this last Conference. He said, "How we preserve time for family is one of the most significant issues we face..." So true!
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