I can hardly remember so many of the details of the day. My baby sister was getting married, and I was so excited for her. But I had a 12 day old baby and was recovering from a c-section. Every step I took was carefully thought out and it hurt me too badly to even stand up straight. A few days before I finally dared try on my bridesmaid dress and it didn't fit. My incredible sisters and husband searched high and low and found me a replacement just in time. I was so nervous about how the day would go. I was nervous having my newborn out with that many people, I was nervous to have to nurse in public throughout the day, and I was nervous I just wasn't going to make it to the end of the day.
I remember walking into the temple, feeling like it was no small miracle that we had even gotten ourselves there. Marie was tending Asher in the waiting room and it felt weird leaving him. I saw my uncle and he asked me how I was doing. Tears filled up in my eyes and I couldn't get any words to form. All I finally was able to get out was a tiny little 'fine'. He realized it may have been better not to ask. That was not the only time that happened this day.
The day was absolutely beautiful. Elise was the most gorgeous bride and her and Mike were so happy together. I was so glad that I was there, and knew that I would never have been able to miss it. Miraculously I made it to the temple, to the luncheon, and to the reception. I was on lortab and so I know I missed out on a few things that I wish I hadn't, but all in all it was a gorgeous, beautiful day and I was so happy to be there. I couldn't get up and dance with my sisters and cuter than cute nieces and nephews, but all I can remember now is how happy I was to be there, watching my happy family while holding my tiny baby in my arms.
By the end of the night I couldn't stop from crying once again as I hugged Elise and wished her congratulations. We got into our car to drive home and I cried most of the way home. I don't know why now but my emotions were so raw and my body was physically exhausted.
Asher was such a teeny tiny baby and I cannot even believe he was ever this small. I was looking through Elise's wedding pictures yesterday and all of these memories came back to me. I never posted these pictures on here and I love them because of what a beautiful day it was.
I must say I think my family is beautiful and feel so blessed to have them.
7 comments:
I know you look at these pictures and see pain, but you looks AMAZING considering all you'd been through! I love these first pictures of your little family. . . and that Asher. Seriously? How could he have been that tiny! You were superwoman to make it through that day! Love you!
Asher is so tiny! And what a cute, chubby cheeked little man he has become :) you look amazing-- this post made me cry. Partly bc it was so sweet, and partly bc I feel that exact same way right now.
Chels - you have a real talent with words. Loved this! And love that pic of Asher! SO cute.
Oh Chels! I am so glad you could be there for this special day. This post kinda breaks my heart and I can't help but feel a little evil putting you through all that, but I'm so grateful you did! Asher is so tiny and perfect. And you look so beautiful in all these pictures. And you are one great sister. Love you.
You looked SO good only 12 days after having Asher. Can't believe how tiny he was. It never ceases to amaze me how fast they grow. I totally get the emotions. Tyler took me to dinner a week after having Grace and for no real reason I started cry at dinner. I freaked him out. I think the exhaustion definitely plays a huge factor. It's nice that doesn't last too long. (Sorry for the novel here)
Aww, what a sweet post. Holy cow, those first couple pics of Asher...SO tiny...hard to believe he was ever that small! You look so great in all these pictures. Those first few weeks of a new baby--your FIRST baby---are HARD!! So wonderful, but hard. Love ya!
You look great for having just had a baby! And I can't imagine how hard it would be to recover from a c-section... Such cute pics!
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